who am i??

"its still the same
its been the same
day after night
always till today

am i a father's pride,
or my mother's smile,
a brother's chum or
the twinkle of a sister's eye

am i smugness
on a friend's face,
or a loathing,
a heartbreak

am i sane
a chap of reason,
or plain simple rabid
with no thoughts humane

its still the same
its been the same
night after day
always till today

for today i know
not all but this
i am a bit sad
and so are you

for today i know
you read my words
being a dimwit when i ask
"Who am I??" "
-nj

PS: no offence.... :P